today was sad. mr tan was going through differentciation(math) or whatever that was. i missed friday's lesson cos i didn't go to school. so i didn't understand a single thing. and when he offered to go teach those who missed friday's lesson, initially i was like. okay. then when he started teaching, all i could even think of was huh? like ya. mr tan teaches super fast. unless you understand everything, you wont understand anything. i'm not making any sense.

i'm either nuts or its my hormones. hello? anyone? charlene's insane. ohh call the ambulance! call the police! call superman! call the mental hospital! or, call me. =P
kay.
to those who have been around me these few days/weeks/months,
thanks for ta-han-ning me.
i'm not in my right state of mind.
ie. this morning. bursting out in christmas carols while walking back to class. talking to myself in class. and telling everyone i'm nuts. well. that's nuts!
another ie. jonathan. i've been unreasonable. i know. but. i really miss the old bedok two terribily. and i'm still pissed with you for taking ages to reply smses. oh. and also for telling me that change is inevitable.

i've been very emotional lately. i'm sorry for bursting out in tears on saturday at macdonalds. i couldn't help it. xiao ting. i'm sorry for dragging you to cell with me. the 'disapproving' look jon gave you. i'm really sorry.
maybe i'm stressed. cant believe i'm admitting that.
i used to hold the title of most carefree person in the level. in other words, the most bo chup person. i still am. but only because all the uncertainties and worries and studying goes on only behind the scenes. i say i dont care. but really. i do.

zann came over after school. zann. i just want you to know that i really love you too.(gosh. that sounded wrong...zann. you know what i mean.) everything will work out in the end. i'll be here. and i understand. and i'll always hate waiting.

and. i dont know if i like him.
how?
like.
i cant make up my mind.

and. i cant wait for pe, mass pe and hip hop classes.
i really really wanna go kayaking. from paddle culture to bedok jetty and back. anyone?
oh. but i want a log book first! =(

i'm not ready for school.

oh. and get me goo goo dolls and hoobastank ceedees pleease??