my dad tries too hard to please me, then when it doesnt work, he flares up.

my mum keeps on screaming at me.

its not as if i dont want to sleep early.
i want to.
but i cant.

yesterday, i wanted to sleep at 2 plus. but i couldnt.
i just lay in bed.
i think it was around four plus that i gave up trying to sleep and listened to my old cds.
slept at around five plus six.
i swear i have a sleeping disorder(i think its called insomnia?)

didnt know kelis was nice. i bought her cd years ago just for one song. milkshake. then when i realised i couldnt rip the cd into my computer, i got pissed and put the cd aside. ccome to think of it, this is the second time i listened to the cd in what? one? two? years.

and the other cd i listened to was robbie william greatest hits.
i'm smitten.
all nineteen tracks were fab.
listened to the whole cd 2 times.
got really emotional at some tracks.
like strong, angels and feel.
the classics.
and the road to mandalay is damn nice.
haha.

i think i'm in love with robbie.
he's old
i dont mind dating him though.
he's hot.
old, but hot.
he's wacky funny playful naughty goofy hot on the outside, shy and emotional on the inside.
and he's got grey eyes.
yum.






































lastly...

omg. exactly one more week till my o's!!!
i think its time i start studying.....

one more week till birthday.
one more week plus one day till o lvls.
22 more days till exams over.
57 more days till christmas.

thats the countdown.

parents celebrated my birthday on friday cos there'll be other things we have to go to on the other days. went to jacks place at parkway. mum bought two cds for me. i picked them of course. rudebox by robbie williams and futuresex/lovesounds by justin timberlake. i swear the both of them are drop dead sexy. i was debating between afi, panic!, justin and robbie. but my mood at that time told me to pick robbie and justin. i'll save 40 bucks to get the other two cds.

i managed to find afi's miss murder.
=P

reviews again.
pink's songs are addictive. period.
the video is something new.
her in the red leotard thingy's kinda kinky.

robbie!
firstly, songs aside, he's hot. his eyes!!! omg. they're grey. damn dreamy ok.
songs.
i'm hooked on both okay.
esp rudebox.
heard it on his concert on star world last month.
damn nice.
and lovelight.
he has a rather nice falsetto no?
both songs are like the perfect chilling out songs.

justin.
oh boy.
justin is also hot. =P
he and britney were the perfect couple.
oh well.
its been years and i'm still not over it.
the choreography's pretty good for my love.
and justin pulls off any moves damn smoothly.
he's free styling in some of the parts.

ok i'm off.

Pink - U + Ur Hand

PINK
U + Ur Hand

Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh
Check it out
Going out
On the late night
Looking tight
Feeling nice
It's a **** fight
I can tell
I just know
That it's going down
Tonight
At the door we don't wait cause we know them
At the bar six shots just beginning
That's when dick head put his hands on me
But you see

I'm not here for your entertainment
You don't really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it's over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It's just you and your hand tonight

Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh

Midnight
I'm drunk
I don't give a ***k
Wanna dance
By myself
Guess you're outta luck
Don't touch
Back up
I'm not the one
Buh bye
Listen up it's just not happening
You can say what you want to your boyfriends
Just let me have my fun tonight
Aiight

I'm not here for your entertainment
You don't really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it's over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It's just you and your hand tonight

Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh
Break break
Break it down

In the corner with your boys you bet up five bucks
To get at the girl that just walked in but she thinks you suck
We didn't get all dressed up just for you to see
So quit spilling your drinks on me yeah

You know who you are
High fivin, talkin ****, but you're going home alone arentcha?

Cause I'm not here for your entertainment
No
You don't really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it's over
Know it's over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It's just you and your hand tonight
It's just you and your hand

I'm not here for your entertainment
No no no
You don't really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
Just take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it's over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It's just you and your hand tonight
Yeah oh

Robbie Williams - Rudebox

ROBBIE WILLIAMS
Rudebox

Do the rudebox, Shake your rudebox [x4]

Ok then back to basics grab your shell toes and your fat laces
A little hand clap for some funk faces and make your body move in the following places
Goes up your back and then down your spine and when it hits your head:

Ok then back to baseheads dance like you just won at the special Olympics
I got the rudebox of the back of a spaceship, so sick I just had to take it
The R.U.D.E.B.O.X. up yer jacksy, split yer kecks sing a song of semtex,
Pocket full of durex body full of mandrex.
Are we gonna have sex (yes) will you wear your knee socks (ohh) back to the rudebox

Got this double fantasy where we just never stop,
I've got one design and that's to funk you to the top.
Know whats on my mind there's only one thing you will find,
I got one design and that's to bump you til you drop

Rudebox, do the rudebox, cos you so nasty
Rudebox, shake your rudebox, why you so nasty

Rudebox, do the rudebox, cos you so nasty
Rudebox, shake your rudebox, why you so nasty

Ok then back to spaceship, take both pills fuck the matrix
Jack those jills shake your Playtex rock 3 stripes not the asics
A.D.I.D.A.S old school cos it's the best - yes
Tk max cost less yes
Jackson looks a mess bless

Ok then what to do, if you try to jack me ill rudebox you,
If you rudebox me, I'll rudebox your whole crew
Cos its what I do aint that right boo - true

I'll ride with you if you can get me to the border
Cos the sheriff's after me for what I did to his daughter.
I did it like this - you did it like that - I love it when you double clap clap

Grab this double fantasy where we just never stop,
I've got one design and that's to funk you to the top.
Know whats on my mind there's only one thing you will find,
I got one design and that's to bump you til you drop

Rudebox, do the rudebox, cos you so nasty
Rudebox, shake your rudebox, why you so nasty

Rudebox, do the rudebox, cos you so nasty
Rudebox, shake your rudebox, why you so nasty

Ok then check the tan line, make your body shape like you're stood on a landmine
Call me on my mobile not the landline and the jack the mainline at the same time

Ok this is what we do, got a jam so fresh its nice for you
Ok give it what you got and dial 808 for the bass to drop
Ok then whats the fracas grab your cardy your lead hat and your bus pass
You don't sweat much for a fat lass grab your rudebox cos your box is righteous

Ok bum rush the show
I got high speed dubbing on my stereo and all the tunes in the box are the cherrio,
I know I told you before, did you hear me though

Grab this double fantasy where we just never stop,
I've got one design and that's to funk you to the top.
Know whats on my mind there's only one thing you will find,
I got one design and that's to bump you til you drop

Rudebox, do the rudebox, cos you so nasty
Rudebox, shake your rudebox, why you so nasty

Rudebox, do the rudebox, cos you so nasty
Rudebox, shake your rudebox, why you so nasty

Do the rudebox, shake your rudebox [repeat to fade]


[Thanks to Vina (vina1988@hotmail.com) for these lyrics]

Robbie Willams - Lovelight

ROBBIE WILLIAMS
Lovelight

[Lewis Taylor cover]

What am I supposed to do
To keep from going under
Now your making holes in my heart and yes it's starting to show
I've been holding back
Is it any wonder?
Since you walked right into my life and interrupted the flow

[CHORUS]

I wanna know
Baby when you're with me
Who do you think you're foolin'?
Making me feel so short
Turnin' your lovelight down again
Why don't you let me be
You don't know what you're doin'
Making me feel so short
And turnin' your lovelight down again

Did it again, did it again
Baby I've got to know
Are we gonna make it?
Lay it down right beside me tonight and do whatever you feel
Baby your in control
Where you gonna take it?
Don't you think that I'll do you right you know darn well that I will

[CHORUS]
I wanna know
Baby when you're with me
Who do you think you're foolin'?
Making me feel so short
Turnin' your lovelight down again
Why don't you let me be
You don't know what you're doin'
Making me feel so short
And turnin' your lovelight down again

Do it again, do it again
Do it again, do it again

Baby you turn your lovelight down
And I don't know, just how long I can stick around
Gonna need more, and it ain't just physical
I dunno what I can do, if I've found that
It ain't love this time around
Keep turning down your lovelight, did it again [x4]

[CHORUS]

When ever you...
Baby when you're with me
Who do you think you're foolin'?
Making me feel so short
Turnin' your lovelight down again
Why don't you let me be
You don't know what you're doin'
Making me feel so short
And turnin' your lovelight down again

[REPEAT AND FADE]

Justin Timberlake - My Love

JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE (feat. T.I.)
My Love

Ain't another woman that can take your spot my-

If I wrote you a symphony,
Just to say how much you mean to me (what would you do?)
If I told you you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular (tell me, would you?)
Well, baby I've been around the world
But I ain't seen myself another girl (like you)
This ring here represents my heart
But there's just one thing I need from you (say "I do")

[Chorus:]
Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

Ooooh, girl
My love
My love

Now, if I wrote you a love note
And made you smile with every word I wrote (what would you do?)
Would that make you want to change your scene
And wanna be the one on my team (tell me, would you?)
See, what's the point of waiting anymore?
Cause girl I've never been more sure (that baby, it's you)
This ring here represents my heart
And everything that you've been waiting for (just say "I do")

[Chorus:]
Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

Ooooh, girl
My love
My love

[T.I.'s rap:]
Shorty, cool as a fan
On the new once again
But, still has fan from Peru to Japan
Listen baby, I don't wanna ruin your plan
If you got a man, try to lose him if you can
Cause the girls world wild through their hands up high
When they wanna come kick it wit a stand up guy
(Trust me) You don't really wanna let the chance go by
'cause you ain't been seen wit a man so fly
Baby friends so fly i can go fly
Private, cause I handle mine
T.I. they call me candle guy, simply because I am on fire
I hate to have to cancel my vacation so you can't deny
I'm patient, but I ain't gonna try
You don't come, I ain't gonna die
Hold up, what you mean, you can't go why?
Me and you boyfriend we ain't no tie
You say you wanna kick it when I ain't so high
Well, baby it's obvious that I ain't your guy
Ain't gon' lie, I feel your space
But forget your face, I swear I will
St. Barths, same bullet, anywhere I chill
Just bring wit me a pair, I will

[Chorus:]
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(Love) My love
(Love) My love
(Love) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(Love) My love
(Love) My love
(Love) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

Ooooh, girl
My love
My love

youtube removed the afi video due to copyright infringement. wtf.
i'm trying to look for another one.
but meanwhile,
i found this.
its played at double speed. lol.

ok reviews.

cassie's me & u is addictive.
like after you hear it once, you wanna hear it again.
and the tune gets stuck in your head.
she's kinda hot.
hot and pretty.

afi.
i like miss murder.
video quite nice.
a lill dark, mysrerious.
this song's also stuck in my head.
but i think the bridge is a lill outta place.
yea.
and love like winter rubs onto you.
first time you hear it, kinda irritating.
2nd time, ok.
3rd time, hey. its kinda nice.
4th time, play it again!
the video's unique.
winter.
kinda reminds me of the movie the lion the witch and wardrobe.

AFI - Love Like Winter

AFI
Love Like Winter

Warn your warmth to turn away,
Here it's december,
Everyday. [small girlish echo:] i'm with you, or i love you

Press your lips to the sculptures,
And surely you'll stay. [distant:] love like winter

For of sugar and ice,
I am made. I am made

It's in the blood,
It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
He wanted love,
I taste of blood.
He bit my lip, and drank my war,
From years before, from years before.

She exhales vanilla lace,
I barely dreamt her, yesterday. [echo:] yesterday
Read the lines in the mirror through,
The lipstick trace.
Por siempre

She said "It seems you're somewhere, far away" to his face.

It's in the blood,
It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
She wanted love,
I taste of blood.
She bit my lip, and drank my war,
From years before, from years before.

Love Like Winter.

Love Like Winter.

Winter.
Three, four

It's in the blood,
It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
He wanted love,
I taste of blood.
He bit my lip, and drank my war,
From years before, from years before.
From years before.

AFI - Miss Murder

AFI
Miss Murder

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?

Whoa-oh-ohh

With just a look they shook
And heavens bowed before him.
Simply a look can break your heart.
The stars that pierce the sky;
He left them all behind.
We’re left to wonder why
He left us all behind.

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh
(ohh)

Dreams of his crash won’t pass
Oh, how they all adored him
Beauty will last when spiraled down.
The stars that mystify
He left them all behind.
And how his children cried
He left us all behind.

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh

What's the hook, the twist
Within this verbose mystery?
I would gladly bet my life upon it.
That the ghost you love, your ray of light
Will fizzle out without hope.
We're the empty set just floating through, wrapped in skin
Ever searching for what we were promised.
Reaching for that golden ring we'd never let go,
but who would ever let us put put our filthy hands upon it?

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh

Cassie - Me & U

CASSIE LYRICS
Me & U

You've been waiting so long
I'm here to answer your call
I know that I shouldn't have had you waiting at all
I've been so busy, but I've been thinking about what I wanna do with you

I know them other guys, they been talking bout the way I do what I do
They heard I was good, they wanna see if it's true
They know you're the one I wanna give it to
I can see you want me too
Now, it's me and you

It's me and you, now
I've been waiting (Waiting)
Think I wanna make that move, now
Baby, tell me if you like it (Tell me if you like it)
It's me and you, now
I've been waiting
Think I wanna make that move, now
Baby, tell me how you like it

I was waiting for you to tell me you were ready
I know what to do, if only you would let me
As long as you're cool with it, I'll treat you right
Here is where you wanna be

I know them other guys, they been talking bout the way I do what I do
They heard I was good, they wanna see if it's true
They know you're the one I wanna give it to
I can see you want me too
And now, it's me and you

It's me and you now (Baby, it's me and you)
I've been waiting
Think I wanna make that move, now (Thinking bout making that move)
Baby, tell me if you like it (Tell me if you like it)
It's me and you, now (Uh-huh)
I've been waiting (Hey)
Think I wanna make that move, now (Wanna make a move)
Baby, tell me how you like it (Yea)

Baby, I'll love you all the way down
Get cha right where you like it, I promise you'll like it (I swear)
Just relax and let me make that move (It's our secret thang)
Keep it between me and you

It's me and you, now (Oh Yea-a)
I've been waiting
Think I wanna make that move, now (Move now)
Baby, tell me if you like (Tell me if you like it)
It's me and you, now (Yea)
I've been waiting
Think I wanna make that move, now (Gonna make a move now)
Baby, tell me how you like it
It's me and you

Baby ill love you all the way down
Get you just where you like
I promise you'll like it(i swear)
Just relax and let me make a move(it's now secret)

It's me and you, now
I've been waiting (Waiting)
Think I wanna make that move, now
Baby, tell me if you like it (Tell me if you like it)
It's me and you, now
I've been waiting
Think I wanna make that move, now
Baby, tell me how you like it

It's me and you, now
I've been waiting (Waiting)
Think I wanna make that move, now
Baby, tell me if you like it (Tell me if you like it)
It's me and you, now
I've been waiting
Think I wanna make that move, now
Baby, tell me how you like it.

Lifehouse - You and Me

LIFEHOUSE
You And Me

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

alright fine.
justin msged my brother to tell me to stop dissing him.
-_-"
i only did it once what. in my blog, zann's blog, winston's blog and justin's blog.
tts all.
they were all on the same day at the same time.
and whoddaya say's dissing who?
anyway, whatver.
i only stated facts.
and.
ok.
now winston tells me that he thinks it isnt justin.
-_-"
so here's an apology to justin.
sorry for calling you a stupid nanapok.

the practicals are over.
whoopee.

alota thingies happened. happy thingies sad thingies. but i wont nlog about that.

stupid nanapok justin choy suaned my brother.
he said my brother's blog is gay and he cant play the guitar properly. justin cant even play the guitar.
lemme tell you justin. i'm the only person who can cll my brother or anything that belongs to him, gay.
its normal for guys to watch porn. but its not when its publicly known that you do.
you're a minor justin. behave like one.
xiao didi. dont think you're all that. you're nothing. N-O-T-H-I-N-G.
geddit? get your grades up before you start bad mouthing people.
small fry.
ugly small fry.

i am so not in a good mood.
dont ask me if i'm ok/fine, cos i'm obviously not.
urggh.

stupid tuition teacher. got my hopes up for naught. tuition was initially on sunday, but he postponed due to church commitments. today, he msged me saying today cannot cos he had some family problems. but told me not to be too happy and to remember to do my homework. then he msged me again, saying its settled and tuition's back on at 7.30 today, which is in an hour's time.

i'm feeling damn seepy and obviously the tuition work's not done.

dammit.

i'm not gonna do it.

since yesterday, i've been feeling damn nauseated.
i can feel wired chemical reactions going on in my stomach.
and to add to it, there's diarrhoea.
all since yesterday.
its like practically peeing out of my ass.

maybe its gotta do with the thingy i accidentally swallowed during dental yesterday.

dammit.
i feel like dying.

i almost broke down during dinner today.
cant be bothered.
dad thinks he's all that.
mum thinks dad's all that.
wilbert thinks he can get away with everything.
and parents let him.
dammit.
if you want a perfect daughter, you should have considered that before deciding to give birth to me.
i am not perfect.





anyway, i found out that i can go for first three months. at millenia institute.